magnakron

Happy new year everyone. Any good new years resolutions? And are you going to keep them or break them like I do nearly every year? XD

Tomorrow after two and a half years my time being a trainee as a "retail merchandiser" (something higher than a shop assistant in germany- for the german folks= Einzelhandelskaufmann) is over if I pass my FINAL exam. It is an exam where I am verbally tested. Most times they are sales conversations, that is harder than it sounds. Having canceled two previous trainings as a chef doesn´t make this easier. There are just two options either that I pass or that I pass out. I know I could make it but still there are doubts. I already shortened my training and it would be embarassing if I wouldn´t pass. Ok enough of me, see you all tomorrow.

I see myself as something like a guardian but have no one that wants to be guarded.  I doesn´t fear the death I rather long for it. The things I fear are social based. I want to protect the people I like against enemies. If there is no other way I will destroy these enemy. But now I know not the others are the enemies...... I am it.....  I lost two friends because of this. I hope one of them is reading this and know who I mean. Say it please to the other one: I regret it, I regret my whole "life". Say the special word and I will pay the bill and  I´ll be a danger to you no more.....